its always amazing how songs can do wonders to a person's life, it can exuberate a party, redefine romantic moments, heal the broken, inspire the weak and so much more. there is always one song that i will always remember

i really hope you guys will actually play the song and look throught the lyrics and read what i've got to say and try to feel what i feel. guys who are single, put yourself in my shoes and try to imagine you're attached, see yourself doing what i'm doing and i hope you get to feel what love is. its not bout getting into a relationship, there's much more to it. girls who have broken up with your boyfriends because you feel you're not getting enough attention or he's not doing his part, put yourself into Kailing's position and "see" the different circumstances. i hope you'll realise the amount of effort he puts in, painstakingly, though he might seem to be ignorant at times, he might need a break but he doesn't know how to put it to you. i'm not saying i'm a role model in relationships and love but i'm being absolutely honest, i hope with all my heart you guys will be touched in a way somehow or other.



Blind
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

this song defined who i really am in a relationship, the chorus is the main part. it says my love for you is blind, and that i loved you more than you'll ever know. the person whom i loved and loved with all that i am is and always will be Kailing. my love for her was blind to the point i didnt care bout the hurts and pain she caused me. i forgived her everytime she makes a mistake, and i just love her for who she is and who she isn't. love is so big its impossible to mean it without actions, she knows how much i love her, but to what extent? everytime i plan so hard to make sure dates are fool proof and perfect, i take everything into account, or how bout taking the trouble, despite the inconveniences to make sure she gets to class or gets home safe and sound, despite all these trouble, its still a pleasure and a joy for me. i never compare her to other girls, bout beauty or character, i know it'll hurt her and so i refrain, just love her for all that she is and all that she is not. all i want to do is to love her to the best of my ability and with everything i am, be there when she needs me, and to be loved by her. every guy loving a girl needs love from a woman's good heart. she loves me, Kailing loves me, i know it deep down from my heart.



Like You'll Never See Me Again
If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for

I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

How many really know what love is?
No you never will
Do you know until you lose it
That it's everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me
I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me'
Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again


this is another song that touched me, what would you do when time is running out on you? would you treasure the times we shared, and everytime we're together, what goes through your mind and how much love and passion will you put in?? thats all question for all to ponder. will you be complacent and treat it like just another date or are you gonna treat it like its the last one always, giving the best you can, even if it might not be good enough sometimes. i often wonder how i treat Kailing sometimes and i realise that though i try my best every time, i would still unknowingly hurt her feelings with my words or my actions. i admit i'm a hard guy to please because of my ego and i've seen the times where you gave your best but i was stubborn and immature and i broke your heart. many things i never meant for them to happen but they do, and i just dont have the ability to keep things under tabs. the future is full of uncertainties that when i look back, i've taken you for granted quite a few times to be honest, and now, i cherish all that has happened, every smile, every kiss, every hug, every joy, every time we're together, every pain, every tear, everything good or bad, i treasure those times. never have i felt so loved by any person, including my parents too surprisingly, till you walked into my life. your eyes saw through the facade i created, with such intense love but yet so gentle at the same time. you accepted my imperfections, my bad characters but most of all, you accepted me for the way i am. with such love, there's nothing more i'd ask for but to be with you always.

I Love you Kailing,
Surf