sometimes i feel that we take alot of things for granted and we tend to complain a tad too much and we have a high tendency to be "comfortable" after sometime. we always fail to realise that despite all that is happening, somethings in life will never change, like no matter how much mournings, we can never bring the dead back, and yet, people still consistently fail to get this point into them. have you really took time off to take things slowly, clear your mind and appreciate what is around us. i always like to look into the sky and around 6 to 7pm whenever i have the opportunity to. i love to look at the clouds and the sun setting, soaking up the warmth radiating on my face and look in awe at the beautiful colours in the sky.

there was once i was on my way to kailing's house and i was listening to When You're Gone by Avril lavigne. it was my second time listening to it and i paid real close attention to the lyrics and they meant alot. i played it on repeat mode and i started to think about various groups of people in my life.

My Family: i always felt alot for my family even though sometimes my actions dont show sometimes. i get the most fragile whenever problems find their way into my family. and i'd think what would happen if they suddenly pass away and i'm all alone.

Kailing: a very integral part of my life. she is the one who carries me through the tough and bad times. always my motivation to do things right, always thought that she was so special to me though not alot of people appreciate her at times. her love for me keeps me going whenever i'm stuck in pits of depression. cant imagine her gone, never can and never will.

Friends: my closest group which i can truly enjoy myself to the fullest. i have never once regretted the decision to join them. it makes me happy and i can share problems with them and they'll help me out. the fun and enjoyment is one of a kind and i truly love it.

when all these went through my mind, i related them back to the song and i started to tear uncontrollably. i tried my best to hold my tears back but all was vain. i dare not imagine my life without those 3 amazing group of people. i really appreciate all of you guys, no matter how you guys are, i love you all for who you guys are.

Surf

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